Worry and stress
Our brain is very good at calculating future events.
Once you earn 100usd in one day, it calculates how much you will earn in a month.
When you don’t earn the target amount, chaos happens.
The point is, once you design your future events in mind and things don’t go as expected, stress and worry come to the surface.
You are worried that you cannot be successful in anything, worried that you are going to relapse sooner or later.
Moreover, you are stressed with your daily tasks.
There are so many things to do, and you have very little time.
Most of all, you don’t feel motivated enough to work after a few minutes or hours.
How are you going to achieve goals if this continues?
There are so many questions in your mind, and all you can do is try more, push more and work more.
With strong willpower and motivation, you mage to work 10 hours for today.
But, the next day, your expectations have already changed.
You want to work again, 10 hours for the next day, but 10 hours is a long time.
How are you supposed to continue?
Each minute and second feels like torture, and your stress and worry increase because of this.
Once your stress and worry increase, the only way to release these negative emotions is to watch pornography again.
It has always relaxed you in the past; it will do again.
The cycle continues.
What if you don’t care how many hours you are going to work.
You may work for a minute or 24 hours.
You don’t know what will happen, and making assumptions is not helpful, as you have already experienced.
What if you just enjoy the moment when you are performing the task.
If you don’t enjoy the tasks while performing them, then it’s okay; your neural pathways have not been stronger yet for that activity.
It takes time.
Move on to the next thing you like to do.
The good thing about ourselves is that we always know what we want to do at this moment.
We don’t need a pre-design path for our life.
Let the path carve on its own by the decisions we take in these moments.